Letting go ... lacking control

Hi Friends.

First I must say that if you've tried to access my website, www.OrganicHealing.net, it is temporarily down as I'm switching hosting companies. I'm using ThinkHost now, and they are a sustainable, earth-friendly, carbon neutral company. It's been important for me to align myself with these like-minded companies. A bit of worry hangs over though, that this situation of my site being down is out of my control. I realize these people are professionals and experienced at what they do, but this small part of me is thinking up worst-case scenarios (What if the site is lost? Is this even possible? What on earth would I do?). I've tended to this baby of mine for a long time now and created something I'm quite proud of. I just don't want anything to happen to it. Hmmmmmm ..... my website, and all the people around me whom I care deeply about.

This brings me to a theme that's been so relevant these past couple weeks, and honestly, the past several years. I'm realizing much of it stems from fear, and I can't stand the idea of limiting my potential because of fear! Admitting there's a lack of control of certain future situations really is the power of letting go. In my carefree life, the law of attraction resonates with me and I see it happening all around me. So, turn off the fear and think positive thoughts! Oh, okay - that sounds so easy!

One of the primary contributing factors to dedicating my life to sharing what I know and have experienced comes from a place of seeing the quality of other's life dissipate right before my eyes and not being able to do a thing about it. It all began years ago when the closest person to me lost their life to 'terminal' cancer. I say that in quotes because now I believe that illness and chronic disease is preventable, whereas then I unfortunately didn't know anything of what I know now. Without giving away too many personal details, these circumstances were different; there was an exposure to something which did cause the cancer to be terminal, however, it was the unhealthy lifestyle of this person which ultimately determined that outcome.

Suffering is not inevitable; compromise is not acceptable; lifestyle and what you put into your body is everything. I spent a ridiculous amount of time researching, reading, and immersing myself in natural health information. My first encounter with a wellness center was during this time and I thought I struck gold. All that I came to know was too late to help the one person I desperately wanted to save, and now, nothing stops my path of helping others achieve outstanding, vibrant health. The catch: this all goes to plan providing they want this for themselves, too. I'm an intense person anyway, and add to it this intensely driven nature to shift the mindset of the world (ambitious, I know), and do so in honor of the woman who gave me life.

I see this pattern with those closest to me. I recognize that no matter how much I want them to want the best for themselves, it really just comes down to each individual genuinely wanting it for themselves. This passion decides whether they take action. I can provide all the information, motivation, and inspiration they need, but if it doesn't come from within, then the changes made simply won't last. Some are fortunate to not go through these life-altering experiences, and the rest of us are lucky enough to have persevered, and survived them.

Personal loss makes you want to give away and share everything you learned from that experience, to prevent others from unnecessarily shortening their life too. This was the pivotal point that ignited my passion for all things living.